Tuesday, September 21, 2010

In Her Memories

he world was beautiful today under a clear blue sky that you could hear the birds singing as Katie sat peacefully looking out her window. She had lived there for seventy-five years now. She had come there with Anton when she was barely more than a lady and she smiled at the memories as she watched the leaves fall from its stem.

It always gave her a feeling of peacefulness sitting there looking at the view. It was easy to recall the endless challenges she had faced together with her beloved husband and her children. It had all been so difficult then…so different… and it never seemed so long ago—seventy-five years. She looked down at her hands and startled her to see the hands of an old woman. She had lived long, too long.

She stood and moved slowly toward her cabinet as she passed the table where the photographs placed. She stopped and looked at them. As she looked at it, she thought the life she shared with Anton her husband…the world they had built. There they were, Ana, her oldest daughter together with George and Mike. It was amazing how fast it all went, how time flew by, she thought of many things remembering how sweat trickled down her face in cleaning their rooms, the time she listen to their stories, in giving them love, support and everything they need. They were still there in her heart as they stepped out into the world on their own. She was sorrowful as she remembers that now she was alone in the big house that was filled with noise, laughter and love from the past.

Anton already died for the past ten years. It became the beginning of her sadness from being desolated because her children left her.But for Katie, her children were some easier to understand. She had always waited. There was always a big thrill of excitement to see their faces again. She stood looking at the pictures fora long time, touching the moments, thinking of them, gently brushing up against the memories while trying not to bump into those that were too painful.

And now, she returned and sat again peacefully looking out at the window. As the sun rose at her sight, there were tears, the memories in her mind and heart faded and one by one disappeared.

Monday, September 20, 2010

It's My Life!

To see is to feel what’s real; to be is to believe what the future offers us to see. But never take more than what you give or the one will put lies in your soul just like an unknown thief. Love is the rhythm for you to walk upon the cloud of freedom, so strong you never want again to give them. The ray of sunshine felt like an arrow to my vision as I never walk in light, only guided by one true ally to be my sight. Now I learn the lesson of being delicate to reach one true individual, strong enough to fight the storm of the world full of lies, ignorance, unfairness, deception and most of all betrayal. I must live long enough to see my work had been done in a world of beauty in my own reflectance.

After so many wound and painful experience I know I cannot quit here and now. So I give myself a chance to see maybe fate will lead me to the right door this time… It was a hard time for me to do something I always wanted. I always take order from other people, being told to be someone I’m not pleased to be; I was born to be the victim. Then one day I talk with myself,I take a step out of the cage and do everything I wanted. It’s not as smooth as I was thinking its going to be, God gave me strength to walk on my very own feet. It was all started from nothing, from scratch until I bleed my fingers but I was complete. Mr. Bon Jovi said on one of his songs: “It’s my life, it is now or never. I ain’t gonna live forever. I just wanna live when I’m alive.” He was damn right. I’m looking at myself now, I almost got everything I need, and every step I take are choices that come out from my own heart.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Ang Buhay ay Musika


Sumasaliw ang himig ng musika
Liriko ng awitin mula sa gitara
Lumilipad sa hangin ang bawat nota
Sumasayaw, nananabik, kumakanta...

Indayog ng tibok ng pusong umiibig
Naririnig ang tunay nitong pinipintig
Ngumingiti ang mga matang humihikbi
Naghihilom ang bawat pighati

Lumipas man o matuyot ang bawat dahon
Huminto ang galaw ng dagat---pag-alon
Ang hiwaga ng buhay ay magpapatuloy
Humina man ang bawat taghoy.

Gunita ng kahapon kung di man maibalik
Musika'y may ritmo na tila isang halik
Sa pagbubukas ng panibagong pahina
Muling tutogtog ang iyong gitara...